An aura of bodies in movement, a bright warm touch of sun light, though almost a dim space, it is morning. A noise of coloured textures framed by the tv screen, a smile, and the sensation of being thoughtful into these details… short fragments of this atmosphere which keeps the mind busy. A present moment in which I feel my body immersed in awareness, imitating a sensation of emptiness. This real moment transforms one second into a surreal gesture of time.
“…always empty, always unattached and it’s not more than a circular thought within us; inside of these waves of contact I would disappear… there is a natural momentum to your whole body sensation, which is the emptiness that you are.”1
How much do you let yourself be exposed to the information outside of your body?
Tension distorts the feeling of presence. It transforms it into a self-sensitive conscious state of mind. The fastest way to counter this process is to disappear. Since it is physically impossible, my body remains present when my senses shut down. The captured images of reflected light become an analogy for this form of experience. Through this discovery I experience the light as something originating from the white which here represents emptiness.
In response to this sensation, my distorted experience becomes a visual appearance:
from light to the sense of seeing,
In the beginning life was blind. There were no eyes to see our world with. This turned into a process of different stages of mutation, which sculpted the human eye during billions of years to become one of the most complex organs. Apart from this, the sun, the source of light is being identified as a “spiritual form of ultimate reality and emerges one of the most universal and fundamental symbols”. Life, clarity and the sense of growth.
“Visible light is what stimulates the activity of the retina (the area of the eye where the image is produced, converted into nerve signals and sent to the brain).”2 As we only perceive the luminance or reflection of any surface, without light no space or object would be possibly experienced visually.
from bright light to an overexposed image, the overexposed, the white — the disappearance of information,
If you look at the sun or any direct source of light with an open eye, a ghostly image will affect your sight for a short period of time. An afterimage of a complementary colour that will project onto the physical space while you are trying to rest your eye. If you focus the lens of a camera onto any source of light the same information will appear as an overexposed image, and an aura will appear as constantly shining out of the bright origin. Even if with the eye we do not see the same information as through the lens of a camera, a full impression of light stimulates the retina equally as when whiteness appears.
bright light and body sensation,
This process is being performed in a work by Sarah Pucill, “Blind Light”, in which she explores the presence of light through the lenses of a camera and her voice adds to this, “I want to see the sun; the eye burns, swells, looses focus and disappears in a stream”. As she describes her body experience, over the sequence of frames “each performance or action threatens the image as it shifts in and out of 'proper' exposure until it disappears completely.”3
the disappearance of information — the transition to emptiness,
There are diverse manners of seeing an image; captured by a camera or printed it still reveals a visual sensation that our eyes might miss. The disappearance in Sarah’s work is the white that illustrates the bright light in the eye of the lenses. “Because colour is not understood through our visual sense alone, but through all our senses, colour becomes established as a grand system of consciousness.”4 When the same form of white is printed on paper, it reveals emptiness. If there would not be an aura to present the space of the reflected light, the disappeared information would make the white paper remain completely empty.
Light, paper or the screen of this document - white [why] empty? ”White is a particularly unusual colour because it can also be seen as the absence of colour. White can be attained by blending all the colours of the spectrum together. In short, it is “all colours” and “no colour” at the same time. This identity as a colour that can “escape colour” makes white very special. In some cases white denotes ‘emptiness’. White as noncolor transforms into a symbol of nonbeing.”5
“Somehow our own relation to specific events and images in time appears to be focused upon certain hunting disparate fragments of our experience, we are both observer and participator.”6